Can you do both at the same time? Yup. Often happens when you take a good look at yourself. 
Was contemplating the concept ‘working out your salvation with fear and trembling’ and it brought me back, back to the last time I deeply considered that verse and considered the need I had for a good heart spring cleaning.
If there had been room I would have also added to the above title “And A Blast From The Not So Distant Past” because I realised some of the same old stuff was cluttering up my heart.
Wow I was wondering why I had been feeling so dark lately and it hit me that I am still a person who fears change greatly when it relates to relationships. Change in relationships often means FAILURE to me… I greatly fear letting people down and hurting them!
I thank God that he lead me to a post I made during a moment of awakening about this very same fear of mine.
~Esther de Waal in To Pause at the Threshold: Reflections on Living on the Border
“There comes a time when the things that were undoubtedly good and right in the past must be left behind, for there is always the danger that they might hinder us from moving forward and connecting with the one necessary thing, Christ himself.”
I am praying for a soft and loving heart toward what ever Christ has planned this time… praying I will not fight it but will trust my Lord.
P.s. This song has been following me around and I finally found out who it is (kept hearing it on the radio) playing it… if you have the time check out Sanctus Real and their song Whatever You’re Doing, it is amazingly reflective of how I am feeling.
TTFN
