I figured that title would get the attention of some, especially family;)
I spent the day trying to shake the blues… it was raining and although I love the rain I have a little storm going on in my house that makes even the fresh spring rains hard to take. Baby Boy has taken to yelling all day. A miserable, angry, discontent, complaining kinda sound is all I get from him lately. A couple days of this and I feel like I have never been so tired.
It is amazing how mental strain and noise can really wipe you out! At the same time I have been so inactive (because all he wants is to be held) I think my body might just take off at a run without me! We sit on the couch so much together I get desperate and start walking him around, while I try to do choirs and HE IS HEAVY! If I have to walk the floors with this big kid for one more hour my feet will retire and look for other work! My back is gonna lock up any time now! It happened with Big Boy at this age! He got SO big and wouldn’t let me put him down until I had no choice. My back locked up half way to bending down towards him and that was that… Mommy had to give him, and herself some tough love and stop the constant pampering.
It is so hard to ignore my Baby Boy, he is my last baby for crying out loud! Seriously, I cry out loud about that some times still! So I figure if I just got me another kid younger then Baby Boy he would have to toughen up like the other three had too… but then I suppose you can’t go with that plan for ever and the needy toddler will be a cycle that just continues to be repeated…
My husbanded showed great sympathy on the phone today… he didn’t try to fix it or question me on what I am doing wrong, he just understood. That is all a tired out Mama needs now and then, some compassion and understanding. Points for Garnet!
Ha ha ha, oh it felt good to complain! Have a great day!
P.s. It doesn’t help that I am going through ‘Chuck’ withdrawal… it is a TV show we bought a season one DVD for and now that we finished the season I am resorting to watching clips of it on the Internet!
TTFN
