I became a Christian for many reasons. One was this constant feeling, this nudge, that there was more to it all. After having been a Christian for many years now I again feel this nudge that there is more to it all… more to this Christian life I took up in my youth. It is a feeling that I shouldn’t be afraid to grow and mature in the faith and move on from what is now normal or what now comes natural. It wasn’t normal or natural for me to take the initial plunge into Jesus and yet I did it…
The way I live now comes naturally. We are normal middle class north Americans… and yet… I want to fearlessly take another plunge into living for the kingdom of Christ now and not spend all my time working on my kingdom, on forming my identity, on shaping everything around me to reflect bits of me…
All this stuff, all I possess was given to me anyhow! I don’t want to be like the Ezekiel 16 woman and take the gifts, specifically the gift of life and use it for my own selfish gain and walk right into my own destruction.
It doesn’t sound normal… but if you take a look at
Bits and pieces here, fragmented thoughts… as I said before, it is a nudge right now… however, I do have the urge to plunge in even with just a driving nudge in my heart! No more prancing and dancing on the shore of the issue:)
TTFN
Good thoughts Becky, thanks for sharing. It’s a good reminder for me as well.
It’s been so long since I have been by for a visit, just back reading all the posts I’ve missed. That one thought by Lewis made me think of a quote in the Ortberg book I recently read “The Life You’ve Always Wanted”. It basically said that when you become a christian you metamorphasize but not into something new and different so much as into what you were originally intended to be. REally stopped me in my tracks too. Gotta run, screaming kids!