How come the desire to run ahead causes me to desire the comfort of the past? The human condition has not changed since time began and I am not immune to it.
I have been letting myself go into a dark mood the last day or so and I wasn’t totally sure of the cause. Impatience is my newest suspicion.
We left our comfortable town because that was no longer where God wanted us. I have since let the idea that he has other plans for us, completely different from our own wash over me. So I thought I would be fine with it all now… now that I knew he had big things in store I was focused, well mostly focused, and for sure excited… but then nothing happened, or so I felt, for the last year, I developed impatience. After all, we left so lets start getting somewhere!
I started toying with the idea of how ‘things where better when’ … when we weren’t in line with God’s plan for our life… is that what I was thinking? Oh brother I am acting like the people of God when they got feed up and wanted to go back to Egypt! I honestly know there is no going back for me but… …
Thankfully the Lord never leaves me to my human conditions devices. Yesterday a speaker at a study I attended reminded me of Davids years of hiding from Saul and waiting for the kingdom he was already given by God. Those supposed wasted years where years of great learning. Our Lord is really good at giving us times to adjust, learn and grow into what is to come.
If I think about it really hard and stop being so worked up about what is ahead I realize we are growing here. When I stop thinking about the past with rose colored glasses I can see the good going on in the now.
I so appreciate the artistic minds, blessed by Christ, that turn these human experiences into word and song! It is no coincidence that these songs find me when I need to hear them… today the Spirit of the Lord lead me to a Sara Groves song. Click on the below link to read the whole thing.
Again it is time to get along with the truth and kick out the mood. And so I wait on the Lords timing.
TTFN
David did have to wait a LONG time before he actually took the throne, didn’t he? He was one very patient (and submitted) guy. (Yes, he had other faults, I know… like 8 wives!)
I do admire the way David never tried to take the matter of becoming king into his own hands–he did have the opportunity to kill Saul at least once. But he was unwilling to bring harm to “the Lord’s anointed.”
It sounds like you have some big dreams that you’re waiting for God to fulfill. I look forward to watching Him move in your life…
Blessings, e-Mom ღ