(The unusual apple trees we have in our yard are almost unnoticeable from the yard, because they are hidden by our row of healthy cedars… but leave through the back gate and have a look from the alley and you have something so much bigger then you would have thought… beautiful!)Okay…
so let me get this straight…
I have to fight for myself…
with in the health care system…
I am sorry… I am writing these incoherent thoughts after a walk to try and clear my head… which came after a rant that didn’t help it make sense and all that after a day of trying to de-stress about it… which was needed after the second call where I was treated like a pain in the ass for asking for help and advice and some clarity from health care workers… which followed, of course, the diagnosis and wanting to know ‘what next’…
To be honest… I am intimidated… don’t like the idea of ‘fighting for myself’ in this area…
The best I can come up with is perhaps cliché to some but it is all I’ve got right now… cuz I certainly don’t feel strong enough to fight at present…like everything else I am going to give this to Jesus and pray for his words and timing in relation to this and just trust… cuz this gut wrenching stuff is not even close to a healthy alternative…
TTFN
