Who knew being excited and happy could be so exhausting?! After living here for a little over three months I realise we have a lot more adjusting to go through and although we are so thrilled to have moved we are also strained by it.
For every great moment in this adventure there have been crusty and very honest ’emotional let fly’ kinda moments. We are smiling and laughing a lot… when we are not falling back into untamed toddler mode (and I am not just talking about my littlest kids with that description). Everyone has let their politeness filter slide a little. We are all letting our not so great habits shine a little more then normal since we moved. I have a feeling, with time, we will be able to tuck those bad habits away again and find the strength to try harder to be nice to the ones we live with. I don’t think I saw all the adjustment stuff coming! Not to this extent! In the past the kids were so young they just rolled with it all. Now we have four kids going through culture change, a family pet who was very confused and kept trying to go home by running away from our new home and there is still the typical work and strain on mom and dad that was there for our previous moves too.
“…in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.”
I try to tell myself, OFTEN, to stop and pretend just now matter instead of PUSHING SO HARD to find a new normal! I know we will all find this new normal, but if I am honest with myself it will take more time then I have been letting it. AND THEN we will be able to clearly see that the good from this transition far outweighs the bad… we are all just a little too crusty right now to see that 🙂
How often in life have I, in the back of my mind, thought I could rush us through the not so nice stuff with a little mommy power and effort? This is who they, they meaning my people, my family, are right now and I think the only thing I can offer is the consciousness of this grumpy time and unconditional love of mom anyhow. I am not saying I am just going to wait it out… no indeed I am going to go right on living though this rough patch and throw myself at the mercy seat of Christ because, by golly, for all my awareness I am just as crusty through this upheaval!
P.s. I have so much love in my heart for the friends and relatives that helped us with this big move. Shout out to Nathan, Mike and Anna, Garrison and Mirelle, Steward and Josh!
Always Lady Mac An Rothaich
TTFN
Sometimes just your Dad’s and my personalities are too much in one house. You have 6 people in 1 house and 4 of them are still developing. God bless as you grow through the latest issues that are move related and life related. I am also so thankful for your precious friends that have helped you in this huge move to Vonda. On the first note. Not sure what “Normal” really is but mostly I think it is when there is peace, and since most of the peace should be in our hearts with Christ we can make it through each day thanks to Him. Love Mom.