FIVE K

When she asked me to join her in doing a 5 k, my husband advised me to say yes before I thought myself out of it.  And he was right.  I would have found an adequately deep rooted internal conflict to make me back away from a new adventure in life.  Often we can see uneasy growth coming from a mile away… in this case I saw it 5 k away… I had enough desire to move beyond my self inflicted limitations to say yes and leave the thinking for later.

In less then two weeks I will be part of a walk/run fund-raiser for the Kidney Foundation.  This will be my first 5k and I am both eager and nervous.  It has been an interesting emotional journey as well.  I decided to do this run for a friend, but I also knew I was doing it because of my families history with kidney issues… this reason, however, I preferred to keep at the back of my mind.

You can still pledge support for my run HERE, and thank you so much if you choose to 🙂

Being told you carry a disease (genetically) and will eventually have it start attacking your body… knowing not when this will begin… has been a very unpleasant part of my life.  Unpleasant enough to lead me to make decisions based on fear… not wanting to talk about it for fear of not holding it together… not wanting to pray about it or ask for prayer from others… being angry or upset on my own but not wanting anything to do with public acknowledgement of its existence.  I both hated and protected my collection of health issues, and so I held them unto myself largely through denial.

Deny and fear something long enough and hopelessness can just walk right in, along with many other nasty emotional friends.  The sooner you share things like this the less they fester.

I was honoured to be prayed over this past weekend, by a ministry team my husband and I work with, a group of people I consider mentors in my Christian walk.  By the end of this prayer time I was gifted the return of hope and felt the weight of my ‘sickness’ labels just fall right off.  Not only did I find my confidence in Christ’s loving attention to my physical health as well as my spiritual health returning, I felt confidence in my church family again… I had honestly started to feel no one would handle this with grace, or see me the same once I laid out my collection of health stuff for all to see.

I am now doing the run with and for hope and joy in my circumstances; this hope and joy being in and from my God and saviour Jesus Christ.

¹⁰ He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, ¹¹ as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.

~2Corinthians 1:10 &11 (NIV)~

Always Lady Mac an Rothaich

TTFN