Archive for May, 2011

Weary

by admin on May 30, 2011 in Bits Of My Personality, Feeling It (Thankful), Life Keeps Changing with 1 Comment
Not the only woman to feel and become weary and wish to stop thinking and feeling for a bit but I am gonna just keep loving even though it hurts, for my own sake as well as for others. I am actually physically warn out though… as a result of the mental run around going on and the throbbing heart in my chest…

I look at my kids and my man and my dog and I remember joy and peace.

I resolve this week to look past the pain and do what I do because I like doing it!

I am going to clean up my house and do my laundry with blaring pumped up music, like I always do on Mondays.
I am going to go out and socialize with people who invest in my soul, as I often do on Tuesdays.
I am going to explore a park and the market with my littlest two, as I look forward to doing each Wednesday.
I am going to hang laundry in my pretty back yard and back bread in my cozy home, as I delight to do on Thursdays.I am going to find a coffee or tea date for Friday, as I tend to do; as if to wrap up my week with a treat.
I am going to try a little something new this week, as my adventurous side gets excited about, and start jogging with my dog again, as my practical side urges me to do… I AM GONNA DO!

Lol, just keep swimming, just keep swimming… wasn’t it a little blue cartoon fish who spoke those words of wisdom?

Bring on the week, the work and the fun can blur into one if I am moving with joints lubricated with love and joy in the Lord.

TTFN

Sandra McCracken “In Feast Or Fallow” acoustic

by admin on May 26, 2011 in Uncategorized with No comments


This was my hearts cry when my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer last year and the Lord made him whole. It is now the song I think of if I over think my diagnosis of late.
TTFN

A Dog In Spring

by admin on May 26, 2011 in Four Little Eggs In My Nest, Little Things, The Pet with No comments

My sister in law teased that the above picture of Riddick and I proves I am ‘one of those’ dog owners, he he he… I insist that he kissed me when I was leaning in closer just to get a picture of the two of us.

Anyhow…

As each season arrives with our first family dog in the mix we all notice the bonus to having him around. Spring is a great time of year to be a dog owner. I have to admit I was very tickled with him following my every move as I gardened, cut weeds and hung laundry to dry outside. When I was motionless for longer then a few minutes he was as good as gold about laying down in the grass close by.

He was like a puppy when we first ventured out to enjoy a morning in the yard. He ran circles around me and the kids and jumped about like a jack rabbit through the cedars and then threw himself in the grass and rolled and rolled till he found the perfect spot and passed out for a nap in the sun. “Spring feels good to him too.” I told the kids. They thought he was very funny.

(The perfect grassy spot.)
(My friendly furry shadow.)

The kids favorite part of the morning with our dog was when we moved the sandbox across the yard (to a spot more visible at all times for me) and he bounced around us nipping at our heals as we haled it. It was as though everything we did was to entertain him. When we stopped and put the sandbox down he instantly jumped in it and stood there wiggling all over as if to say “Is this for me? Oh boy, oh boy! What is it??”

(The sandbox got so much more attention once we moved it to a sunny part of the yard.)
(The kids had great fun breaking out the bubbles they where given as a gift only days before.)

Just the other day my youngest daughter and I where at the pet store for a peek and couldn’t help but melt at the sight of all the puppies… but I had no problem walking away… fact is I have gone down the puppy road and as cute as they are I appreciate Riddick and his older dog loyalty far more then the energy and cuteness of a pup. I think I will continue to make it my goal to adopt older dogs in the future.

TTFN

And On A Lighter Note, ADVENTURE!

by admin on May 25, 2011 in Adventure and Me, Bits Of My Personality, People In My Heart with No comments

Moose Jaw Saskatchewan is the cutest little city ever! My best pal Mirelle and I had another girls escape this past weekend, in honor of mothers day, and went to this sweet towns famous mineral spa.
Oh it was fabulous to float around in the warm waters every day! The only other main focus we had for the weekend was to eat well, coffee often, and shop.

(The best part is swimming out to the deck and sitting in the warm water while it was raining outside!)

Shopping went well, we found something for each of our kids and got the one item we both focused on for ourselves; wallet for Mirelle and spring/summer purse for me. Don’t get me wrong, I adore the leather bag I have had since I was 12 but it is a hot heavy tot and not the nicest in the warm weather. I was hoping for a vintage-esk bag in a pretty color with the clasp that opens the top WIDE… you know, kinda the style you used to see the oldest lady use on the show ‘golden girls’… anyhow, with a modern flare.

(FOUND IT! The purse that is, in one of our favorite coffee shops of all places!)

Oh I can’t tell you my favorite part but I was very thankful we continued our crepe tradition/obsession and found a place that made them fresh.

(We found our crepe fix at a wonderful formal tea house! We returned there the next morning too as we couldn’t imagine going for breakfast anywhere else after our first experience there.)

(My morning rooibos tea never looked so formal!)

I was too excited ordering room service for the first time ever; pizza and gingerale in bed while watching a girl-y film. Dressing up to have a drink, one of the nights, in the hotels beautiful and sophisticated lounge was a classy affair and I could go on! This posts pictures will share much of my favorite moments and more!As always, with Mirelle and I, it was a weekend of relaxation but plenty of good talks. I am still amazed at our ability to just flow with one another. Although I might not have been the best buddy this time round, being a little raw with everything going on in my real world, I found her as patient and trust worthy as ever.

(Dining out at HOPKINS, a big beautiful Victorian home, was a great way to start our weekend. It was amazing to dine in what appeared to be the houses old ball room!)

I am home now and more then happy to be here but I love to think about the fun we had and always will enjoy these kinds of breaks from mommy reality. Here’s to more adventures!TTFN

Not Special

by admin on May 24, 2011 in Bits Of My Personality, Feeling It (Thankful) with No comments

Attention, when it comes to my health, makes me beyond uncomfortable. I had a hard time announcing my pregnancies in person and usually got my husband to do it…

Born with a birth defect I have spent much of my life trying to be included in the normal category… I soon realised that there is no normal and that we are all broken in some way. This made me decide invisible was a good choice. I worked hard, in my youth, at being unnoticeable and thanks to the in-obvious nature of my birth defect I was really successful at not being pointed out for this fact of my life.

I started to share about the birth defect with more people once I was older, because I really do see the miracle in it all. Based on the diagnosis my mom was given when I was born I am a walking talking miracle… It was painfully soon that I learned to hold back on the amount of information I gave. People got WEIRD in their reactions and responses. Some would all of a sudden treat me as fragile, others would make jokes… and although I don’t mind slip up comments about my birth defect I am not big on being mocked with jokes about it… and all so often I got very judgmental comments about being content in living with it.

Well… after years of trying to be indistinguishable amidst my circle of acquaintances I have recently been diagnosed with another reason for attention. While the specialists wondered how I felt about being saddled with a genetic disease I was only thinking about one thing… oh great, now I have to figure out how to painlessly tell everyone…. As far as I know, the other kids in the family from my generation have all had negative results for the gene.

All I can say is I am not special! We are all broken, we all die of something at some time and we all pass on and are passed the death gene by our parents.

The final thing I want to say is my God is good, all the time, Jesus is GOOD.

TTFN

A late ‘Marriage Monday’ on Moving

by admin on May 17, 2011 in Bits Of My Personality, Life Keeps Changing, Marriage Monday, My Romance, People In My Heart with 1 Comment

Beyond applicable, I have to say! My brother and his family are in the middle of moving a couple provinces away. From observing their experience, and remembering ours, I have points of view to draw on that include children in the mix. However, I think my tip is good for even the grandparents in a move or the childless couples out there.

The biggest thing I can advise is YOU LET THEM COME TO YOU! Everyone who you feel you need to really connect with before you leave needs to come your way. Let them know and then let it go. It is far to frantic a time for you, to disrupted and strange for the children; the remedy to ease that chaos is to really internalize your gaze to your little family and let everyone come to you. Don’t sweat the goodbyes as there are no real goodbyes now a days with Internet, phones and skype. Hold your little family together and find all the time you can to give your spouse and your children direct and patient attention at this time. Everyone else can either join in or butt out, and I mean butt out in the most friendly manner possible:)

Just my two cents.

First Monday of every month at Chrysalis

TTFN

Clothes Line and Fuzzy Feelings

by admin on May 13, 2011 in Four Little Eggs In My Nest, My Romance, The Pet with No comments

The first thing he did on his week off was put up a line for my laundry. Never mind that it took me asking for eleven years and it was our third home where it was put up and he kinda HAD to because our brand new drier was down for over a week, I AM THRILLED! I see it as a clear love act, since he knows I have always enjoyed hanging up the laundry in the fresh air.
Our first warm afternoon with the line in use was a special wimzical afternoon. My youngest two and I put the dog on his long leash in the yard and then we played in the sun under the laundry line. What ever it is about a clothes line that makes life feel cozy the children for sure feel it too. They couldn’t ignore the sheet dancing in the wind. Running in, then out and all around the laundry they squealed and laughed. It was all great fun.

No one wanted to leave the sweet atmosphere of our little patch of grass in the back yard. Even when our tummies started growling the children where not tempted to head for the house. I eventually gave up and brought them out a picnic. It was our first picnic of the year and there was so much wonder and joy under the laundry line that day.

(Time for a picnic lunch. ‘Oh what did you get? I gotsa chocolate sandwich.’ ‘Me to!’)

TTFN

Clothes Lines and Fuzzy Feelings

by admin on May 13, 2011 in Four Little Eggs In My Nest, Little Things, My Romance, The Pet with No comments

The first thing he did on his week off was put up a line for my laundry. Never mind that it took me asking for eleven years and it was our third home where it was put up and he kinda HAD to because our brand new dryer was down for over a week, I AM THRILLED! I see it as a clear love act, since he knows I have always enjoyed hanging up the laundry in the fresh air.
Our first warm afternoon with the line in use was a special whimsical afternoon. My youngest two and I put the dog on his long leash in the yard and then we played in the sun under the laundry line. What ever it is about a clothes line, that makes life feel cozy, the children for sure feel it too. They couldn’t ignore the sheets dancing in the wind. Running in, then out and all around the laundry they squealed and laughed. It was all great fun.

No one wanted to leave the sweet atmosphere of our little patch of grass in the back yard. Even when our tummies started growling the children where not tempted to head for the house. I eventually gave up and brought them out a picnic. It was our first picnic of the year and there was so much wonder and joy under the laundry line that day.

(Time for a picnic lunch. ‘Oh what did you get? I gotsa chocolate sandwich.’ ‘Me to!’)

TTFN

Confess, Serve, We Are A Body

by admin on May 12, 2011 in Feeling It (Thankful), People In My Heart with No comments
( These feet belong to my oldest boy.
Every now and then I let one of my kids stay up late and I wash there feet. The church I attended, when I was very young, practiced this. I gained so much from that experience and so wanted to share it with my children.)

Christ said if we forgive people they are forgiven. Confessing one to another is so important. Serving our brother or sister by letting them confess to us is so important…

I am less and less inclined to see my relationship with Christ as a personal one… it is and isn’t… community is also, and perhaps more, important then the personal relationship idea.

Now that I am more aware of how vital the body of Christ is to the furthering of the kingdom, how its unity is so very valuable, how it is so essential to each and every Christians growth I am concerned by what I see around me. The individual nature of our culture has for sure leaked in in this regard.

(My youngest daughters turn getting a foot washing.)

Confess one to another the good, sure… we don’t really struggle there, but also the bad… vulnerability brings about more intimate relationships and the fact is we are already intimately connected through Christ, he calls us his BODY for crying out loud, it can’t get much closer then that! We are just in so much denial about how connected we really are… we are fighting ourselves…

TTFN

Lasso The Moon

by admin on May 10, 2011 in Feeling It (Thankful), Four Little Eggs In My Nest, Mama Heart Mushings with No comments

They often sit like this, while I put the older three to bed. Daddy and our baby boy often need some one on one time at the end of the day. The days are full of chores and necessary tasks that lead to demands, require constant supervising and all this keeps a Mommy and a Daddy in work mode. This is not the ideal atmosphere for a creative two year old. An ideal atmosphere can be found sitting on his Dad’s lap, with no rush, no instruction, just plenty of time.

Tonight Dad’s reading time was interrupted when his boy spotted the moon in the not yet dark sky.

“Daddy, da mooooooon!” Daddy confirmed it was indeed the moon. “Daddy we gotsa get da moon,” ordered his little boy! His boy was already standing up and out of Daddies lap, bouncing on the couch, pointing with great enthusiasm out the window. As if grasping for the moon he got frustrated and said “I can’t weach it!” Daddy tried and insisted he too couldn’t reach it.

Baby boy was off the couch in a split second and running around the living room. “We need a rope,” he kept yelling! At this point I was already filming his little performance with the video camera. I piped up and offered him an imaginary rope I had in my pocket. “YES,” he yelled, with a big grin he grabbed the rope and ran back to the window!

One mighty toss and he threw it, presumably, right around the moon in a lasso like fashion. I giggled while he and Daddy worked at pulling on that moon for a healthy length of time, considering a two year olds attention span. They where having such a grand time everyone had forgotten about Baby Boys bed time looming.

You pay a little attention to children playing for any real length of time and I think it almost goes without saying that there is something beautiful about kids limitless imaginations. My boy assumed there must be a way to grab the moon and play with it. As a grown woman, a mom, I know my limits… I seem to find more all the time… and because of all these limits closing in on me I am so thankful I live through a limitless God. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and I will do as he requires me… I will enjoy obeying my Lord, besides my mountain of other reasons this one stands out to me tonight, he understands and created the heart of each imaginative child.

TTFN

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