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Catching Fairies

My big girl and little woman looked very sweet today as they ran around on the lawn. They had a whimsy dance to each step as they ran after ‘fairies’. They where blowing the dandy lion seeds and then trying to catch them. It was a sweet little moment of pure childhood imagination and fun. I am not totally sure why Little Woman had her ballet skirt on her head but it added to it all.While they lived in the moment I couldn’t help but think about school starting on Monday… I had new runners, backpacks and other supplies on my mind… This mom knows all to well how sudden summer will come to an end… Ah it is all so sweet, summer holidays that is, when you are a child.

TTFN

Looking for Seeds and Not Just the Weeds

(My boy having a good look at the camp scenery and also his first taste of real freedom from Mom and Dad!)

It was good for Big Girl that I let her experience a week away at camp first, she is the oldest after all but I am glad that Big Boy has also gotten to have his first week away this year. He could hardly sleep the night before sports camp and was the perfect helper in the morning. He practically loaded all his stuff and his three siblings into the van with out my help. We got there early and so he got first pick of the beds! A big deal in the world of camp!

Almost the moment he was gone I was thinking about what a wonderful boy he is (in a haze of mama mush and heart sick loneliness with one fewer child around). You could say I was seeing him in a rose colored light and could only think of how lovely he is as a helper around the house and what a gentleman he is when we go out together.

While I know none of my children are perfect, and wouldn’t want to place the weight of such a silly notion on there little shoulders, I think it is so healthy for a mommy to think about the qualities growing in their children’s souls. It is important to look for and be thankful for the seeds of love and quality sprouting in their hearts. With kiddo chaos easy to find and troubles ready to spring up like weeds daily it can be really hard to remember each child is a special little gift from God. Instead it becomes all to easy to see them as a herd of animals out to get their parents.

Thank you Jesus for each of my babies and may they grow in you and for you!

TTFN

About Turning 30

I have decided I am thirty.

I got all the ‘ooooh thhhhiiiiirrrrttttyyy!’ comments and the winks and nods with furrowed brows meaning ‘oh I feel for you, mid life crisis coming on perhaps?’ We it is all very cliche and my responses can only be just as cliche. This woman is happy to be through the twenties. I have many reasons for being thankful to have survived those ten years of new married life and new mommy life but I would rather talk about what I have decided about turning thirty.

First off I have decided I am a confident mother and woman. Growing up that is what I thought the 30s where all about! Learning to control your emotions better, getting over your self esteem issues and rock’n what ever it is you do! So I have decided I am confident as me! I am especially confident as the me Christ is molding me into! Well, that is that!

What did you do for your big birthday is always the next comment. Well my husband was very sweet and got me a hand made bracelet in a fav color of mine. He also took me to Michael Buble. I really didn’t need a big party because I feel like I have been partying for a while!This year brought so much expansion to my world and I felt like it was a perfect way to celebrate my thirtieth year reached! Went on a couple ‘me’ trips for the first time in ten years. First ever girl friend trip with my sister Mirelle and then took a train with my brothers family to a best pals wedding and fulfilled a dream of mine, to take the train. These trips helped me remember I am a woman and that does not depreciate how much I adore being a mom. The secret is just in quantity and quality. I believe in keeping the ‘big special stuff‘ small in quantity, so they remains special, and making sure these big experiences are quality.

So I can now say I am an adult right?!

TTFN

Chicken Pox

I had been hoping for a real slow pace till school starts up again, you know, lots of lazy days around the house, just the kids and I… sprinkler fun and lots of sun… didn’t think I would get my wish in such a way!

Three down and one to go…well maybe one to go… doc thinks Baby Boy might have had it already and it was just a mild fever and a few spots. Amazing that we didn’t get a for sure diagnosis till it was almost over. My oldest had it first and was so mild she didn’t feel off, just had a couple spots. It was over in a few days. Some where in there my youngest may have had it but we will have to see. My middle two showed signs yesterday and are already on their way to the scab stage (which is when they are no longer contagious). I am thanking the Lord for such mild cases and it happening before school started up again.

Once someone is infected, the virus usually incubates for 14 to 16 days before a rash appears, although incubation can last from 10 days to 21 days. There are no symptoms during incubation and a person is contagious from 1 to 2 days before symptoms appear. The person remains contagious until all the blisters have dried and scabs have formed.

TTFN

Nothing! The Best Kind of Summer Plans In My Book!

I’ve decided I need to live some where else. I need shorter winters! Longer summers! Not hotter summers, just longer!

Summers are too short here (especially when it turns into a rainy season like this year) and I put to much pressure on myself to live life to the full! I feel like I should get it all done because I can do so little come winter… and I miss the kinda summer days I actually love… lazy days at the lake, lazy park days, lazy days puttering in my yard.

(Our last trip to the lake… ahhhh wish I was there again already!)

Forget the house! That messy house will wait for me and will be all I get to look at and work at all winter! For me, puttering at home, in my yard is the best! I could work on my yard with great joy all day and then play hard with the kids afterwards as a sweet and true reward. Forget big suppers. Come summer I forget that I even kinda like to cook…Eating a lazy supper of raw veggies and yet another sandwich is the perfect conclusion for me.Yesterday my eldest son and I weed whacked part of the back alley lawn BY HAND! We snipped and racked for almost two hours and the monstrous pile was proof of our victory, even thought there is plenty more work back there for another day. He is such great work company. He sets his mind on the task at hand, doesn’t complain or talk my ear off. We just bent our backs and worked side by side till the sweat poured.We went in for a cool drink and then ran through the sprinkler till we where beyond wet. Sitting in the sun I closed my eyes and told myself to remembered this is summer to me…If only I could convince my mind to stop finding things that need to be done and if only being done didn’t mean taking me away from my little house!

TTFN

Big Girl Becomes Spring Bean

I feel like it is time to give my four new nicknames. They have changed and grown so much I want my blog pet names to reflect that. I plan to put a little post to each as an introduction to their new pet name.

Spring Bean

She is getting so tall, so slim we can’t help but look at her and call her spring bean.
(All three pictures are of my oldest two playing their invented version of hockey.)

You are strong.
You are determined.
You are unique.
You are artistic.
You have your own style.
You are brave.
You are beautiful.

You are growing up and changing and all for the best.
May you continue to work at patience and embrace being young while you are.
May you be a little girl while you are a little girl.
If you can do this you will grow in grace, joy, peace and true beauty.


TTFN

Our Vow Renewal

(Garnet and I are standing in front of the tree we got engaged under… over 11 years age. We sat together, leaning against the tree…I was reading him the first chapter in Galatians and he burst out ‘will you marry me’)

Many years ago I decided I wanted to have a vow renewal when the kids where little still. There where many reasons for it. I knew the girls would really love the experiences, I wanted to wear my wedding dress again, especially once I was done having children, and it is another reason to celebrate life, love and family.

We joke that after Garnet proved himself unable to remember special dates like our anniversary we made a deal. I wouldn’t fuss about the missed dates and he would let me throw a big anniversary party every 10 years. He thought he won but once the ceremony came upon him he knew I won (wink).
We decided to make it special we would amerce our family with special little things because the little things are what is important, and remembered! For example, the girls and I got our hair professionally done and they decided they wanted to have floral crowns instead of bouquets. The guys wore something comfortable instead of super formal. They all looked great in their button up shirts and jeans.

One very special little moment between me and the girls was when we kicked off our shoes as we walked down the isle. I had always wanted to do it bare foot!

Garnet and I going back to our engagement tree and getting pictures done there was very big on the must do list. A good friend, Esther, who is a talented photographer did this for us.

The day was also beautiful because of all the little ways important people in our lives took part.
My sister Mirelle sang a BEAUTIFUL song as we walked down the isle. It was breath taking and I felt so blessed to have her do that for me!

Both sides parents and siblings with their families made it out! Each family had to make an effort to be there, some postponed trips and others traveled far (even though very pregnant) and others still took time off work. I don’t think we have all been together at once since our first ceremony!

(My Mom and Dad)
(Garnet’s Mom and Dad)

Garnet and I wrote our vows and most know already that I found it pretty tough. I was nervous and tried many times to sneak a peek at Garnet’s but he wouldn’t let me. Turned out fabulous. His was about our past and present and mine was about our present and future! I can’t explain how much I appreciated Garnet’s vows… they meant a lot to me… Closed with the very traditional ’till death do us part’ vows and a kiss.

It was adorable how the kids just congregated around, the girls especially where very much into the whole thing. They danced at our feet and watched us, giggling now and then.
Our kiss was much tamer this time round. It felt very different having all our little nieces starring at us.

I played our song on a little stereo after the vows, “Loving A Person” by Sara Groves. We held hands and thought about how hard but rewarding these 10 years together have been.

My Dad then stood and closed in prayer for us, another big moment for me. I held it together till he was done and he and mom hugged me… then I cried. My parents are so precious to me.
A very short ceremony but so special! Right down the cute little church we rented and the leather couches instead of pews that everyone got to sit on.

We finished up with a busy family gathering at our house with boat loads of good food! The girls and I put on less formal dresses so we could have more fun and be more relaxed.The craziness of a big family gathering was actually very comforting to me that day. As it started to slow down and many of us moved to my sitting room up stairs and chatted I felt very thankful for my family. Most everyone left and Garrison and Mirelle stayed well into the night to watch a movie with us.A long day that was amazingly not stressful but fun and so pretty!
TTFN

In Two Days!

HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY TO US!THEN
I was 19 and he was 21!
Wrapped up in one another and not much else!
NOW
I am 29 and he is 31!
Four kids later our world of love has grown A LOT!

Having a quiet rainy day at home. Making buns, doing laundry and enjoying my cozy home. It is a relief to be at home today, stuck because of a delivery I am waiting for. Yesterday was a crazy errand day and the rest of the week will be filled with preparations. I decided to post this today because I am sure even our actual anniversary date will be busy. We are renewing our vows on the weekend and having a ceremony for our family. The buns are for the potluck that will follow the ceremony. I really don’t want this party to be about stress but about celebrating life and family and OF COURSE my husband and my love for one another so I am trying to take it slow and not go overkill on plans… thus today… a slow it down day… an enjoy now day.

I can still see the young guy I married when I look at my husband. I can still get completely mushy when I think about how we fell in love.

From a Passionate Love to a Crazy Love.

I am no longer full of secrets, they where never kept from him, just undiscovered when we started out together. All is reveled, he knows all my fear and faults as well as my dreams and qualities. I also, in turn, no all this about him. This is a CRAZY love! In a modern world where love is to be easy and fun and exciting it is crazy to love someone for who they really are, the good and bad. Most expect others to love them that way but are unable to give such forgiving and patient love. Everyone finds it so easy to say good by when people change or things get tough. Everyone understands the passionate love, the showy romance. It is drilled into us, coming from every angle. To understand the crazy love is much more difficult. It is HARD. It is worth it.

“Crazy love, in a world where I could be my own woman and hold my own dreams I choose to be your woman and dream of being a couple to the end.”

TTFN

Winnipeg Adventure

I like Winnipeg!
Got a mini tour the night I arrived. A friend drove me to my girl friends apartment and on the way gave me a guided tour through many of the nice parts of the city. The forest in the middle of the city is so special! I was impressed! The Parliament buildings where beautiful and there where so many interesting neighborhoods to explore.

(It was very refreshing to walk everywhere.)

We mostly stayed in the down town area after that initial tour. That is where the train station was, the wedding and our hotel. All where near to the forks too so I got to explore them with my brothers family one of the mornings.

(Karla and I on the tower at the forks.)

So the tower was perhaps one of our adventures, although not a fav of mine. The tower was attached to a beautiful craft/ fresh goods kind of market. It was glass and that didn’t impress me. I didn’t need to see all the way down all the time. When we got to the top I was pretty sure smudgy pictures of the scenery, from the inside of the tower, where fine but my big brother managed to convince me to check out the ledge. He smirked and said ‘say fear of heights’ as he took this above picture of his wife and I.We walked to a mall, after the forks, and on the way it really started to rain. I had a blast running from over hang to over hang with my brother and his family. We would wait for the street light to change to walk and come bursting out again and run to beat the band across the street and straight to another over hang. Got totally wet anyhow:)

By the end of the trip I felt comfortable with the underground mall (the cities way of crossing many of the busy streets) and the sky ways, not really sure what they call them, that connect the buildings down town by going over streets. The last day there I even went and did a little shopping on my own, before the train departed. Found a few dresses and almost got carried away trying them on. Got two out of the bunch for a real good deal but almost missed the train in the process. I did not look cool running like a mad woman back to the hotel and then to the station. Sweaty and tired when I got there I was also thankful because I made it just in time. It was all good though, I knew I would have lots of down time on the train after all that.

(I was huffing and puffing when I took this picture of a government building on the way to the station.)

I would for sure enjoy going back!

TTFN

A Scottish Hymn

“…your old men will dream dreams…”
~From the Book of Joel

My Dad was in the city for a few days, he had more appointments. Dad managed to stop in on me twice for tea. My kids and I where very thankful for that. The visits where short but packed full. We shared tea and conversation and, most importantly, we shared time.

On his last stop in, before he was to head home, he brought me in a CD of bagpipe music to listen to. I don’t always think of myself as a Scotswoman, but when I hear the mournful song of a good bagpipe player I am always moved more then just could be pure coincidental… I am reminded there is a reason this music strikes me to the core… I am Scottish.

Dad put on a favorite hymn and when the strings and piano joined in with the pipes he started to tear up… his face took on a very serious but soft look to it and I could tell he was drawn into his own mind and his own memories. He simply said “This reminds me of my Grandpa Munro.” His voice cracked as he said his grand-dad’s name and he switch to his Scottish accent to give the family name flare and, I imagine, respect as well.

The music had stirred a pressure up in my chest and the sight of my father fighting with emotion threw my heart up into my throat. I couldn’t respond. I simply nodded and stayed quiet.

The verse mentioned above crashed into my consciousness and I just about cried. I don’t know if I can explain the relation but I felt like I understood that verse so much more.

The verse is talking about when God’s Spirit, the Holy Spirit, is poured out on all flesh… the old men will dream dreams…perhaps it is talking about dreams beyond our world of selfish desires, our self centered world that is for the young and is YOUTH… Old men are gifted with the ability to look back and remember…then look forward and dream of the eternal… the Holy Ghost filled old man can see IT clearer, it is more natural for him to dream of eternity then for the youth. The young will prophesy, they are really meant to be of now, focused on the kingdom of God here and now.

I say with all love, let the old men dream.

The moment was just that, a moment, and then he had to fly. This is such a busy season for him and Mom.

P.s. Related LINK.

TTFN