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Another Year Of Ladies Card Nights

I don’t know how many years we have been doing this but it has been years. A lot of ladies have come and gone and it is just a great way to get to know women. For a while now we have focused more on the eating and talking in our group but lately we have actually started playing poker again and it has been fun.

The group of us that originally started this did it to keep in touch. It was around the time that ‘texas hold em’ became a big fad so we thought it would be cute to start a poker group when usually it is guys that have the poker nights. The men, our men, where at first intrigued but when they found out how nice and overly cautious we where about risking our chips (even though we don’t even involve money) it became a humorous thing…Kicked off the new year with our first match at my place. I was particularly excited about the alcohol free white grape sparklers I got from Super Store and the stemless wine glasses I bought to serve them! It was a fancy treat for all of us MOMS! I am always impressed with the nice food everyone contributes, we always eat well! We take turns hosting so I hadn’t for a while and I really enjoyed hosting such a stellar group of women!I can’t help taking pictures of our gatherings because so often there are new girls or friends able to come who have been gone for ages… those of us who are long time attenders keep changing so it is just as interesting to see us over the years meeting once a month to just enjoy one anothers company!I left my Christmas stuff up for this one last event and finally took it down today, I am actually sad about taking it down this year… usually I can hardly wait for everything to look less cluttered again but I decorated so much later then normal so I hadn’t reached that feeling yet. Perhaps I was just more in the holiday spirit this year!

Here is to another year of the ladies poker nights!

TTFN

N is for NEICES!

Got to babysit my older brother’s daughter for the first time this weekend… it was very special!

When I spend time with my nieces, any one of them, (I have three) I am reminded it isn’t just my children that are special. All children are special and amazing. I adore being an auntie, plain and simple! I hope for even more little cousins for my kids and nieces and/or nephews for ME!

TTFN

Just How I Feel Today

Or, perhaps, how I am hoping to feel…

I love the wild whole hearted look my oldest two ooze as they run madly for the water in this picture from the summer past! FUN is a childs heart cry; innocent, pure, content FUN!

Ignite invincible summer!! IGNITE!

That’s all I’ve got today, oh, that and a smiley face to wrap it all up:)

TTFN

Brothers, Sick Days and Dishes

(My brother’s daughter and I snuggling to keep warm at the rink!)

So I accomplished a goal of mine and got myself and the older kids out skating! I realised right away it has been a long time and I am really rusty at it! I also had a great deal of fun with my kids and my brother’s family. Jesse is my youngest brother, a great guy. I know this might sound silly but I really really love my brothers! The picture below will probably be a favorite of mine for life! I don’t have a lot of pictures of my brothers and I as adults together… we don’t spend a lot of time together… I know I am largely at fault for that since I am so easily overwhelmed by life I tend to miss out on chances to be with them.

A couple days feelings of disconnect had settled heavily over my heart… disconnect from people and specifically fellowship… I know I do it to myself… My first reaction to any stress is to bury myself away… anyhow for some reason my brothers came into my head and I remembered my mom talking me to me years ago about what a connection you have to your brothers no matter what… you are SO connected… I get it… It made me happy to think about them… They are both very different men with different families of their own but they are both so worthy of respect and they make me proud.

I am feeling really ill today and hope it will not last long… I hate being sick, things get so out of sorts in a home when the wife is sick…

Little Woman was trying to cheer me up about being under the weather and she said ‘When you are all better you can do dishes with me!’ To her dishes are a time to visit with Mommy, one on one, and to feel like a big girl… to me… well I looked over at the mountain of dirty dishes and just felt impending doom… Dishes just don’t cheer up this sick mommy like they do my Little Woman.

My chicken noodle soup is almost ready, I skipped supper but I am trying to not go to bed without protein. Is there protein in chicken noodle soup? Ahhhh well, I am going to bed early and will dream about dish washing machines again…

TTFN

Little Women!

A collection of fine lady friends of mine went out to a musical theatrical production of LITTLE WOMEN! We brought our little women along (those 5 and older) who could sit still!

Getting ready was a bit tricky. My daughter is a newly declared tomboy so at first she could only worry and go on about what her buddy Max would think about her dressed up. I convinced her to glam up by letting her borrow a pair of my grandmothers earrings… this was the first time I have let her wear earrings in public so she was convinced! I wasn’t at all surprised that she loved JO in the play. “She is rough and fun Mama.” she explained on our way home.

I caught up with two lady friends and their girls at a little restaurant for dinner first! My girl was thrilled to try her first ‘Shirley Temple’. The little girls spent as much time dancing around the table as eating. It was lovely to see my girl with old pals from our home town.

The production was so well written and fun that it was positively captivating! The time flew for me! Plenty of tears came when Beth died… mostly the mom’s where crying… and when it was over… well my friend said it best when she expressed the desire to break out in song at the right moments in life after watching such a well done musical!

I was thrilled to see my eldest daughter’s eyes where glued to the stage the whole time. When it ended she couldn’t stop talking about how much fun it must be to be the actors and we had to go have a closer look at the stage and set. What a wonderful Christmas event! I hope to do this again with my daughter and eventually with my younger daughter as well!

TTFN

Noth’n Says Christmas Like…

Like a knock at the door just after breakfast,
and a friend standing there in -35 weather to bring you a treat!
I didn’t exactly know what to say when I saw Kim on my step in a beautiful red coat.
She had brought some of her home made Pepernoten cookies (a Mennonite tradition)!
I was humbled because I had made a little comment on a photo of hers about childhood memories wrapped around these treats.
I really do cherish such kindness and thoughtfulness.

As a little girl I used to attend a little Mennonite Chapel.
Each Christmas they would have bake sales and for 50cents I would buy a pretty big tub of peppernuts from the older ladies.
I would then rush home and devour them all alone in my room.
I looked forward to them every year.
They really are a perfect winter treat!

Little Woman, Baby Boy and I ate them with some very warm tea in between naps all afternoon…
no reason to leave the house when you have cookies, tea and babies to snuggle!
Thanks so much Kim:)

Merry Christmas!

TTFN

Honesty Is Warm, Masks Are Cold


I am good at wearing masks and tell myself that they are not just for my pride sake but necessary to function socially in a healthy fashion. I have been waiting for a place to be real, some women to be real with and I knew that was a God given desire and longing. I have had those types of connections in the past and I am thankful and optimistic about getting to know more sisters now and into the future. Transparency is key though and that doesn’t come naturally.

Tonight as I opened up about something I have been struggling with for years I felt initially scared, it has been such a precious secret of mine. I realise, almost as soon as I opened my mouth to share, it hasn’t be necessary to hold it in so tightly.

They prayed over me and I am so thankful. My Little Woman sat behind me on the couch as they laid hands on me and she mumbled in prayer and drove her hot wheel truck up and down my back… a moment of beautiful humor in the middle of a blessed and personal experience.

Secrets are only serious and big as long as they are keep secrets, friends are only so distant until you open up and let them through the door to your heart, life is only so hard when you think you are the ONLY ONE!

I am sitting in my living room still glowing from the spiritual time we had tonight. The comfy warmth in my home is the Spirit and he leaves me with a feeling like those perfect moments in front of a fire, with a cup of your favorite tea, and your cat on your lap, your favorite over sized sweater draped around you and a cold winters day at bay…

and I am thanking Jesus for honesty and unity among sisters tonight!

TTFN

First Hospital Stay

It isn’t as serious as it sounds… hospital stay always sounds serious…I am pretty sure this is my first stay at a hospital for one of my kids (other then birthing) and that is pretty good considering I have been doing the mom thing for eight years.

Baby Boy and I have been at the hospital for the majority of two days. Took him in for a doctor check up because his breathing wasn’t sounding great and the doctor sent us to the hospital because it seemed like asthma. The first trip up we where sent home after treatment because he was doing better and they couldn’t say for sure he had asthma. A few hours later we where back up because he was worse. This time he was admitted to the hospital due to labored breathing issues and we spent the day there so he could be observed. They treated him for asthma (puffers and the mask) and that was all he needed, after a few doses of medicine he started to do a lot better. We are now home and he is back to his normal self, eating, sleeping well and playing up a storm.

The whole experience was harder due to no sleep for 48 hours and the effort it took to keep him happy being stuck to a crib all day. He was so bored! Making sure the other three kids where taken care of was a real concern too. Since I am nursing still I had to stay with Baby Boy almost the whole time. I am so thankful for the family and friends who stepped up to help us out with prayers and assistance!

Turns out he probably had an aggressive virus (just a cold) and it ware him down enough that he was struggling to breath and beet the bug off. He has caught bronchial infections (viral) almost monthly since he was born so I figured eventually one might be bad. No asthma diagnosis as he is too little for the breathing test. Between him and his oldest sister I look forward to having them officially tested in the future so we can say for sure one way or the other as far as asthma goes.

We are really thankful to be home. Sleeping in our own beds last night was wonderful!

TTFN

Cereal Stories

Today my Big Boy asked for corn flakes. It stopped me in my tracks and a flood of memories came to mind. He said ‘corn flakes’ and for the first time I realised he would no longer innocently refer to them as ‘ka ka do’. As a wee one he was unable to pronounce flakes and because of the rooster on the box he started crowing to tell me what cereal he wanted. He later just called them kaka-do and we all started calling them kaka-do and now we are passed that because he is in the process of maturing… it made me sad…

Cereal must be on my brain lately! I bought a box of ‘fruity o’s‘ yesterday and I NEVER buy sweet cereal for the kids. I looked at it on the shelf and was brought back to my grandmother’s kitchen in the morning. She always had ‘fruity o’s‘ and I loved that about having breakfast with her; my mother didn’t buy the junkier cereals either. I grabbed the box off the shelf and thought about my grandma all the way to the check out and then all the way home. It brought to mind all kinds of sweet memories. I am thankful for the memories and not so happy at the idea of filling my kids up with sugar first thing in the morning but I figure I will hand out a handle full of the overly sweet o’s as snacks now and then, since I payed for them.

I am thankful for the now and the growing ease I have to use the moments to reflect and just enjoy life. I kind of think everyone would have moments of joyful memory brought on by the little things around us if we made more time to BE.

TTFN

He Says Love

…with a cup of tea!Another long day. Both of us are tired and are still left with a feeling of not enough time in the day. We manage to get the kids all to bed and the first thing he wants to do is have tea with me.

Years ago when my man was gone for twelve hour days the tea time became a necessary habit, otherwise we didn’t slow down enough to talk. Back then we would both force ourselves to awake a little later just for the tea and conversation.

Now a days we have more time together and yet we still return to that nightly ritual. It is silent till he ask me what type of tea I would like. He knows what I like in my specific teas. Lots of cream if it is a black tea and no sugar. No cream and a touch of honey if it is a fruit herbal. Nothing if it is a green or mint tea. We hit the couch and automatically start sharing.

It is so easy to listen and love with a cup of tea in hand. It is so easy to love a man who will share a cup of tea and conversation with you. Same place and time tomorrow my love??

TTFN